Random Nail Polish

I think I have a problem....

I am addicted to nail polish.  I buy it even though a majority of the time I can't wear it because I work with food.  I never spend less then $8 on a polish, and sometimes, more often then not, I buy multiples.  This last weekend alone I bought 7, yes 7, nail polishes.  Six of which were $14.  I love them all!  I can't wait to wear them.  I love Butter London and Illamasqua polishes.  They both run around $14 to $15. I picked up the top 6 in this picture.  I also picked up an OPI polish.  I can't seem to get a good picture of it though, it is one of the sand ones that I just can't seem to get to photograph well. I should have been shopping for clothes, but how do you pass up these polishes??  I am excited about the pictures.  I put them together and typed the names on them and messed with the sharpness and stuff.  I am pretty sure they look like crap, but, it is something new for me.

Things are going well here.  We are going on a week without a cigarette.  As a matter of fact, today is 7days.  Yay!! We haven't killed anyone, or each other.  I haven't jumped across the counter at work, and attached anyone.  T is finally starting to feel better.  He finally went to the Dr.  He was sent home with 4 different prescriptions.  And 3 different illnesses,  bronchitis, laryngitis, and an upper respiratory infection.  Maybe he will eventually learn to listen to me when I tell him to do something.  I am feeling like I am fighting something off.  We are probably just passing this back and forth.  Just sharing the love!





 

I have officially made pizza twice, and both times, I haven't gotten pictures of it.  My banana bread turned out really dense.  That is about all I have made in the cooking catagory.  I want to make my own pesto for the pizza next time.  I had no idea that pine nuts were so freaking expensive! But I mean if I can make it with only 5 ingredience when the grocery stuff comes with way more then that, I'll take it.  I have heard that it taste much better too. 

 

T and I need to start getting motivated.  We are both wanting to go to the gym, but neither one of us are motivated to go.  I keep thinking that if I go with out him then that will motivate him to go, or vice versa.  Now that we have both quit smoking, we need to get into shape.  We both like to jog, well, I walk fast, T jogs.  I just get winded so quickly when I jog.  I know that once T starts feeling like he can take a deep breath without caughing, he will be all over me about working out.  Maybe I should start now.

Outrageous Frustration!

This month was a bust.  I am so outrageously frustrated.  I am on the verge of tears.  I quit smoking, which makes me want to rip any ones face off!

I know that all of this crap will pass in a day or so, but come one honestly! Really? This month sucks, I think we really need to start seeking help.  I am going to make a Dr appointment for next week.  And get a referral from the Dr for an OBGYN.  And from there we will just go from there. I know that if I go to the OBGYN and talk to her about our issues, he is going to get mad, saying that it isn't any ones business.  Which I agree, but come on already! When will this start moving in our direction.  I know that I am going to have to talk to someone in the medical field at some point.  And I know this isn't a pressure issue anymore.  I know that it is something else.  I just really wish I knew what the hell was going.  Because I am so outrageously frustrated!

So I did it! I quit smoking, again.  Well, technically, we did it! T quit too. YAY!! We haven't killed each other yet.  Which is a great thing!  It has definitely come close.  I am so hoping that I make it through work tomorrow without killing anyone!

I am having wine and cake with the girls tomorrow.  One of our friends is filing for divorce.  Which absolutely breaks my heart.  I know that they have had problems with infertility.  And I had heard that they just hadn't communicated well enough to make it through it.  A few years back, my best friend and I got into it a little bit, it was right before the holidays.  She had compared T and I to this other couple, because we have some similarities.  Anyways, basically she compared us and I blew up at her, and then we both cried and apologized and now we are fine today.  But, anyways, now this couple is getting a divorce.  I talked to T tonight, because I deep down, I am not so much worried that we will have a child together, but I am more worried that our marriage won't survive getting us there.  He like always reassured me that we will be more then strong enough, we are not them, we have more then them deep down.  Deep down, our souls connect.  I guess, that sounds pretty cheesy. 

I went shopping, yesterday and today.  I bought a few things, I scored a huge deal on some Butter London polish.  Got a Stila Mascara for pretty cheap.  Got my Lorac Pro Blush from ULTA today.  YAY for 20% off coupon! Those things rock.  I wish I had a better camera, so that way I could not necessarily swatch stuff, cause that isn't what I want to do, but I would like to be able to take pictures of the stuff so that way I could at least show what I purchased.  I don't want to go find and use someone else's photos because that isn't me.  I guess I will just not take pictures of my stuff, not for a while at least!

Leaving some words of wisdome before I go.  I can't figure out if I want to talk about love, or strenght, or the fact that I want to rip someones face off.  I guess I could put all of them up!

I know I'm not too lovable right now.  But I am lucky that I have people that love me when I am not nearly as lovable as I usually am.

Bringing Sexy Back

Well it's that time of month again, CD 8.  Doing things a bit different this month, we are going to see how many times we can have sex in two weeks.  Starting today.  I have am motivated and feeling very optimistic.  T is napping right now, so that we we can have some good energy later.  I am off today and tomorrow so hopefully we can have sex tonight and tomorrow, then take a day break and go back at it on the weekend.  I am drinking wine out of my "Sexy" glass tonight.  I was told that the only time I could drink out of it was during my fertility window (thanks Angie).

Tomorrow I will attempt to bake Banana Bread.  I think I finally found a recipe that I like.  Hopefully the bananas I have will be enough to make it taste good! The last time I made banana bread it was really dry and crumbly.  But, I didn't really follow the directions of the recipe.  So this time I will follow the recipe and hopefully it will turn out yummy and I will be able to take some to work, and share the yumminess.  Oh and this time I will wait until I am done baking to crack open a bottle of wine.  Last time I drank a bottle while I was making it.  That could also be why it didn't turn out to good.

After I make banana bread tomorrow, I am taking my little sister apartment shopping tomorrow, and then I am going to ULTA to use my 20% off coupon. I am so excited.  I love that store.  I'll post my makeup haul tomorrow.  And then I am going to go to Macy's and pick up an Inglot shadow.  Yep, that is what I am going to do! It's a plan! So Excited!!!

Pizza and Twilight

I haven't had much to say lately, which I guess is a good thing.  My brain has been remotely empty, and things have been going smoothly.  We are currently on CD 6 and Waiting to Ovulate (waiting to O).  I am in a good place, my brain is re-energized and I am ready for this month.  I am optimistic that this is our month, and I am praying that I can make it through this month without any tears.  My goal is to drink 2 to 3 venti cups of water a day, if not more.  I am not good at drinking water and to be honest I am lucky if I drink any water at all. 

I have never been a big baker, or a great cook.  I set off the smoke detector more often then not. T definitely didn't marry me for my cooking.  But, I have been thinking of doing some baking.  I have some bananas that are needing some bread to go in. Tonight I made a pizza, which was phenomenal! I am proud of my pizza, T liked it a lot! He ate 2 very large pieces! I bought the dough, because I was lazy and didn't feel like making it.  I used a pesto sauce, lots and lots of cheese, chicken, green onion, red pepper, and some seasoning.  It was pretty good.  I didn't look pretty but dang, I was impressed with my pizza ability.

I was so mad when I realized that I forgot the bacon and artichoke hearts.  That was the part I was so excited about and then I forgot! I guess I will have them for the next time I make pizza, which if T has a say will be this week!

T and I went to my parents house last night for dinner.  It was a good time.  Mom and I shared a bottle of red wine.  Mom wasn't sure if she would like it since she doesn't like red wine, but I took over Yellow Tail Sweet Red Roo.  She liked it, and I must say, it's pretty good stuff. It isn't as sweet as Moscato, but its a good alternative, especially with something like Italian food. It would have been really good with the pizza tonight.  I didn't move much over there, I sat on the couch with a massager on my neck.  I pinched a nerve in my neck right at my hair line.  I am definitely noticing that the older I get the longer it takes me to bounce back from any type of injury.

I don't really have much more to say, gonna start my "Twilight" marathon.  I am gonna try to get T to watch with me, but I am pretty sure I have a better chance of him chewing off his leg.  I realize these movies are totally dumb.  But I can't help it, I am sucked in.  I can't wait for the last one to come out on DVD.  I am rambling like a teenage girl right now, so I guess I will quit blabbing on and on. 

Back In The Saddle Again

CD1, yay!

I woke up this morning feeling a little crappy.  I was due any day now, so I wasn't surprised.  Right now I am curled up with a heating pad, and a glass of wine.  Mmmm, I love wine, and my heating pad.  I am so ready to start trying again.  Ready for the crazy to come back! I am all stocked up on OPK's and HTP's, really hoping that I need to use both of them this month.  After AF leaves, I told T that there was no saying no this month.  Whenever either one of us gets a hankering, we are just going to go for it.  I am actually excited for this month, which I haven't been excited in a while, so apparently this was a well needed break. 

I went to my Grandparents house today with A, and my two sisters.  It was so nice to see them.  I am always scared when I go over there to see them. I am afraid that I am going to go see them and my grandpa, who I love so very much, will not be okay.  He has fallen many times over the last few years.  And the man that I thought would never fall, is now wheelchair ridden.  Now granted, he is over 90 and is still quick minded and witty.  His mind is still sharp and he is still very, very informative.  When my oldest sister and I were growing up, we would go to my grandparents house every summer.  We learned to cook, garden, and golf.  My grandpa taught us how to golf at a very young age.  It's one of my favorite past times.  I grew up listening to Hank Jr., Willie Nelson, Patsy Cline, and Tammy Wynette.  I would wake up to the smell of breakfast and my grandma whistling along to the music in the kitchen. 

I have pictures to load when my computer decides it wants to cooperate.  A picture of my grandpa holding a trophy in the 1940's and then a picture of the trophy itself.  Which was sent to him from Arlington High School.  I also have a picture of him in the Navy that I want to share.  But, unfortunately, my computer is being dumb.  I am looking forward to going back to there house in March for his birthday.  And then this summer I want to take T up to the golf course that I learned how to golf on, and show him all the places that we called home when we were kids.  I love it up there, and I miss it terribly.  When we go, I will remember to take a lot of pictures, so that way I can always remember it. 

Here we go! The pictures! I took pictures of them when we were visiting today! I think they turned out good!

I am very proud of my grandpa.  He will always be a hero to me! Grandpa is the one in the upper left hand corner.

Chocolate Frosting

Hallelujah!!! We have water! The plumber came today! Was here for a hour!  A freaking hour! You mean you couldn't have taken care of this a hour after it happened? Come on already! The pipe was pretty gross, T opened up the crawl space, and showed me.  It's pretty darned nasty.  All sorts of gunck in there, all cakey and nasty.  They left all their crap down there though, which kinda ticked me off, its not our crap! Take it with you! But, again, I don't really care because it's under the house, and it's their crap!

Other then that, nothing new to report here.  I think we start trying again next month.  I don't miss the anticipation.  I have been watching Glee since I got home.  This show makes me cry.  I don't know why I love this show so much.  It makes me think of all the things I didn't do.  It makes me think of all of the opportunities that I have missed out on.  I still enjoy singing like crazy.  But, I don't think I will ever be a star like I thought I would be when I was younger.  I think I am pretty much always going to be the same girl I was when I was younger, except for now I am going to be old.  Yay for being old.  I don't regret any choices that I have made, I just wish I would have had more guts!

I ate chocolate frosting today.... as a snack.  I think I may be going crazy! It was so good.  I guess I can just chalk that up to AF coming.   I'm a little scared, not of AF coming, because I know it's coming since we didn't try this last month.  But, I am scared to try next month.  I am afraid of the roller coaster that comes with it.  The constant thinking about it, feeling like I am going crazy.  I feel like I will be alright next cycle but I am second guessing myself.  I know I shouldn't do that but I really think that maybe I need another month.  Did I give up? I don't think so, but I don't know if I am ready to start again.  I know that it has been nice to not have to think about the month, and signs and all the crazy that comes with TTC.  I am not sure if I need another month of that, or if I am in fact just scared.

 

Keep Calm and Buy Nail Polish

This is so freakin stupid!! We noticed our grey water pipe was broken on Monday, how is it not fixed yet? Five days later? Come on already! Not only have I had to do laundry at my mothers, but I also had to shower at my sisters yesterday. It's just getting ridiculous. So anyways, the plumber showed up today for like 5 minutes, asked if he could get through the floor in the kitchen, which you can't, and then left and said he would be back tomorrow morning at 10am. Hopefully, he shows up and doesn't try to go through our kitchen floor, cause that will just be a huge freakin mess.

Anyhoo, I went to see my sister yesterday, and got to spend the whole afternoon with A. I am amazed on how much she grows, and how much energy she has. She is constantly running around telling me chase her, so I would chase her and start tickling her until she couldn't breathe anymore. We laughed until we were crying and snorting.  We snort when we laugh hard. That is one thing that she got from me. She gets a lot from me, even though I am not her mom. She is a good kid though, really funny.  This is what keeps me going.

We went shopping yesterday at ULTA, pretty much the best store EVER! I always spend money when I go there, which doesn't make T to happy, but I enjoy it! I always have coupons and I always get good deals, so I don't see what the big deal is! I exchanged my STILA liner (the cap split). I love that liner and wear at least 4 times a week.  That and my Naked pallet are my go to makeup items. I also got some random cheapie shadows that I can't wait to mix with my Inglot Duraline.  Its going to make some pretty awesome eyeliner.  I also got some pretty nail polish, a bright orange and a pretty teal color.  I didn't really need the polish but they were on clearance, and I don't have anything like them.  T hates my finger nail polish collection.  But its always growing.

I am still anxiously awaiting the arrival of my period. I am ready to start trying again, and think that with a clear mind we will be able to move forward with a little less crazy and a little more fun. As much as I regret not trying this month, I am glad that we didn't, for my sanity and T's. I have about a week before the "lovely Aunt Flo" arrives, so I guess I will be waiting for a while. I am all prepared for the month with all my OPK's and HPT's. I am not getting to ahead of myself, but I am hoping that I will need those HPT's.  I think we are going to try to try harder, which sounds funny, that we are going to try harder.  I would just like to get more days during my Fertility Window.   But, we have said this before so I guess we will just have to put our minds to it and do it!