Starting again... Any day now...

I am ready for a new cycle.  I have come to terms with the fact that I am again, not pregnant this month.  I am ready to just get AF and begin another cycle.  I am done with being an emotional mess and crying at the drop of a hat.  Work has sucked this last week because of my "crazy", T has been avoiding me because he is afraid I will either yell at him or start crying.  Needless to say, I am done! I am tired, I am cranky, and dang it.... I just want to start over. 

Nothing new has been going on here.... It's been pretty quiet.  Valentines Day was pretty nice.  I got called into work early so I ended up not having to close which was nice.  I actually got to see T and we were actually able to spend some time together.   I came home to some pretty roses and made us dinner.  And then on Friday, I went and bought us both some new jeans.  We needed them badly.  I got so frustrated buying jeans for me, I always do though.  T always seems to have such an easy time.  I told T that I felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman, without all of the hooking of course, I had all of this money, and couldn't fine anything.  I couldn't seem to find any jeans, I have always had a hard time spending the money on jeans.  I finally did however buy me two pair and T two pair and I got a new pair of boots, they are wonderful.

T and I went to the casino on Saturday, kinda like a little date.  We went and had Seafood Buffet, and lost a little bit of money.  Then we went to the bar to have a drink, I didn't want to push it with both of us not smoking.  T has been having a really hard time this last week.  So I didn't want to make it any harder for him then it already was.  I don't know why he doesn't just use some sort of aid, I have been, they help.  They don't necessarily make it any easier but they take the edge off when I am about to kill someone.

My mom and I are doing a little shopping tomorrow.  I have promised T that I will be good.  Which means, pretty much, I can't buy anything.  I may however go to Macy's and get something from the Inglot counter.  I love Inglot.  It rocks! I think we are just going to the mall and then to Target.  I definitely have to get some stuff from Target.  I have a list of things that I have needed for about a week now.  T hates it when I got to Target, I never stick to my list.  I try though.  I always seem to walk out of there with stuff we don't need, or things that I think we need and already have 6 of at home.  And keep me away of the makeup and accessories.  Thats usually when I get sucked in.